how many times do i have to get sick
before it finally gets to me?
before i call it quits?
how many times will i be convinced
that you don't want to hear from me?
i know that's not what you said.
i don't feel like fighting.
i don't feel like trying.
i'd be drained if there were something inside of me.
i'm just wasting time.
i'm not even tired.
i'm only sleeping because don't want to be awake.
how many times will i make you worried
that this could be the last time you'll ever hear from me?
how many times will i say i'm sorry?
there's always something wrong with me.
please say i shouldn't speak.
once again i'm screaming like a child.
coughing up blood & spit.
thought i should disappear for a little while.
it still made me feel pathetic.
i didn't expect for you to even call me.
no one knew where i was anyway.
i thought i was alone before.
but this time i know i deserve it.
i'm only alive because no one wants to see me dying.
i'm only surviving because i'm a coward who won't do anything.
i'm tired of breaking everyone's heart all the time.
why should i reach out when all that i do is make you cry?
i don't feel like fighting.
i don't feel like trying.
i'd be drained if there were something inside of me.
i'm just wasting time.
i'm not even tired.
i'm only sleeping because don't want to be awake.
i don't feel like fighting.
credits
released October 5, 2019
guitar/bass/drums/vox by hunter grier
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